Wednesday, September 29, 2010


I don't remember how I was introduced to it, but I spent the past few days reading this yuri-drama piece. It's pretty good, in my opinion. The author does seem to have episodes where she injects misandrist views in it, but for the most part, they're well done. Ah, that is, so far in my reading at least, the anti-men sentiments are essentially just the views of the main character, Yukino, who is a weak and pretty emotional girl. She is getting stronger, emotionally, as the manga goes on, and hopefully she'll not hate an entire half of the human population for no real reason other than 'they stare at my boobs', but I'll have to just keep reading and see.

Speaking of oversexed males, her body is drawn so perfectly~  When she and her girlfriend are in bed with each other, it sends my yuri loving side into ecstasy. Yukino's personality is a bit...clingy, and meek, and she reminds me of me a bit, so that may be why I don't hate her as much as I've read other readers do. Her lover, Setsuko, is really nice, though. Her personality is really realistic. Makes me wonder who the author based her off of...

I don't know if I like this more for the yuri or for the character development...

Monday, September 27, 2010

It is truly a blog!

I am weary.

Since the days when I left those months, filled with guilt and loneliness only the outcast can feel, I have had a constant headache, from a gentle throbbing just beneath my forehead to a violent beating on all parts of my skull from the inside. When I speak, it chastises me with a thump upon my temple. When I listen to others talking, it punishes me with a punch to my head. When I walk, it hits me twice for every two steps I take, and thrice for every three. Every movement, every thought, every breath is somehow worthy of punishment.

I am so weary.

I have nothing to gain by working hard, by studying for test scores, by interrupting my taking it easy. To be stressed with the responsibilities of a normal life is to feel annoyance from the very depths of your heart to your extremities. For this life of mine, to live everyday with listless habits, to have a rote life so I may take it easy until my mind fails me, to have the chance to rest and enjoy my life before I get to rest and enjoy my death, that is what I want out of this life of mine. I have no need for a lover, nor for children, nor for a big house with a white picket fence.

I just want to take it easy.

I want to have a place to sleep that isn't infested by bugs and vermin. I want to have food to eat that isn't rotten. I want to have water to drink and bathe in that is constantly clean. I want to have an unlimited, high-speed internet connection and a computer with a large hard drive.

I don't care for respectability in society's eyes, nor for stressing my own self with worries about bills, about dealing with people, about high scores for future prospects, or about survival.

I just want to be alone, and I want to take it easy.

Pity I have no proof that Balamb Garden exists.
Though, to my memory, that was a military academy, wasn't it?

Useful things

I figured I'd list a few programs and links that people would find useful here.

The program to give your explorer tabs is located here:

Far more options than MS Paint, less of a resource hog than photoshop (starts fast) (don't expect a photoshop clone, it's for the more simple tasks)

Starts as fast as notepad with a whole lot more options and support for loads of programming languages if you happen to be a programmer. Also fine for normal text editing.

BCWipe (last time I checked it's free)
Supports encrypting your swap file, multipass wiping (DOD and beyond) explorer shell extension, wiping recycle bin, etc. (in case you have something to hide).

Music player

* Proxy network: Use TOR

* Untracable file hosting: Use Freenet.
CHK postings are untracable and unrevokable. Once it's up, no one can take it down.

Download from

When you install, pick promiscuous mode.

Once it's been running for a while, post your noderef somewhere and see if you can get anyone to exchange with you. This will help build a private network of people.

To post files, go to /queue on your proxy
To download files, paste the key into the box on the main page of your proxy.

* Totally anonymous and secure email: use i2pmail

Install I2P:
Go to http://hq.postman.i2p to sign up for an account.
Use Susimail (built into the i2p proxy) to access it.

I2p also has some interesting file sharing networks running over it. There are internal bittorrent sites, as well as modified gnutella and ed2k networks.

The router's info page links to the internal bittorrent sites, for the other networks, check out imule.i2p, or poke around in the forums.

Current view of timezones:

EBA/Ouendan clone for PC:

12 Tips to Create a Sleep Haven:

Winwall v2.1
It randomly changes wallpapers.
It's only one of the little squares for options, I just wanted to show all the useful stuff.

Ever wanted to sign up for a forum but didn't want to give them your real email? It even does the copy&paste part for you, so all you have to do is ctrl v!

Media Convert
Change damn near anything to damn near anything (of the same media type):
You click on a food, it tells you all this shit you didn't know went with it. Blueberry and brie go together, by the way.

For virtual desktops on windows, nothing is better than dexpox.

My Lockbox
Awesome program that hides a folder until you enter a password to make it appear. It doesn't make it untracable from computer hackers, but at least prevents family/friends from even seeing where your embarassing or questionable files may be hidden, which is just the level of protection I need.
App for jailbroken iphones -
online encoder -
online decoder - 

Panoramic desktop.
---- documents, leaks, news etc

QuickNotes for ff
You can open up a notepad with ctrl+f7 [or something else if you want to customize your program]. has autosave and tab functions. i suggest it for the working anon.

If you forgot a word but know related ones or its definition, you can look it up here.

If you have a suspicious file, upload it here and it'll scan it with about thirty antivirus programs.

I recommend Piclens
Great to search for pictures, it shows you every pics there is on a scroll wall.

Sunday, September 26, 2010

Cannibalism, ho!

No where else but the Internet can you find anything you need. It truly is a glorious encyclopedia of knowledge, able to tell you anything you need to know. Maybe not when you need it, though, which is why I have the thing for you!

Here is a small excerpt:
Before getting to the main task, it must be mentioned that the complete rendering of the human carcass requires a fairly large amount of time, effort, and space. If the consumer does not wish to go through the ordeal of processing and storing the bulk of the entire animal, an easy alternative is as follows. Simply saw through one or both legs at the points directly below the groin and a few inches above the knee. Once skinned, these portions may then be cut into round steaks of the carver's preferred thickness, cut into fillets, deboned for a roast, etc. Meat for several meals is thus readily obtained without the need for gutting and the complexities of preparing the entire form.
Now, tone of the passage aside, this is some useful stuff here, even if you just remember some minor tidbits, like good ol' human brisket.

So you're with your honey on your honeymoon, cruising along on a ship, enjoying life, when the ship crashes, you get knocked out, and next thing you know, you're stranded on an island with little water, no edible food, and no hopes for escape. Whether you have your honey with you or not is up to your imagination, but you do have another guy there. He's fatter than you, eats way more than you, drinks way more than you, and looks a bit like a burger when he lies down to sleep at night.

Now, this blog is not condoning any acts of non-consensual human-eating...but if you happen to strike a deal with him, you scratch my back, I eat yours, hey! Who's at fault? Really?

In any event, reading the books, memoirs, interviews, etc of the mentally unwell is really interesting.

This guy, for example, is Issei Sagawa. He's a Japanese guy who got thrown away for eating and killing (not in that order) a Dutch lady, and, after release, was given an interview in Japan, where he gave away big secrets cannibalists don't normally tell you when they're cutting you up.

Did you know, according to the Cannibal Society, the sweetest part of the human body is the female clitoris? Described as chewy and sweet, they recommend frying it on a pan, sprinkled with your favorite sauce. No tenderizing necessary here, folks. I don't remember if it was Issei or another such cannibal interviewee who said that.

Here's a link to a transcription of the interview:

"An alternative would be to drown in female saliva. Wouldn’t it be wonderful to be covered all over with women’s spit? If I could die drowning in it, that would be my ultimate dream come true."

God, I love this guy.


Despite my feelings toward custom plushies, she's pretty damn adorable.

Plushies are all the rage, apparently, with their flimsy 2D hair, thin clothing, and big bulging eyes.

Unfortunately, I don't really care for plushies. Maybe a beanie-baby of a certain character or two would be nice, but a poorly-done, custom made plushie that was made in China and sold for five times the materials (Capitalism, ho!) isn't really something I want to cuddle with.

It's really disappointing to me that crocheting isn't as popular as making a plushie is, though that may be because crochet takes a bit of skill to do compared to simply gluing pieces together. A simple google search for "plushie anime" gives back tons of images of plushies from every type of medium, whereas "crochet anime" gives you more dolls from video games, and even more crochet socks.

 It's really quite annoying to me. Custom made plushies are nice, but they just don't have the same intrinsic feeling of warmth that holding a crochet doll brings.

If only I could find one of my favorite character...

Saturday, September 25, 2010

The Joys of Credit

I remember how happy I was when I got my first credit card. Well, granted, it was a debit card, but what's the difference when you're a purchaser, anyway? Then again, I don't think debit cards improve your credit score. I won't use my credit score for quite a while, though, so I don't care.

I was (and still am) poor as fuck, but I did enjoy making my first online purchase from Amazon: a novel, though I don't remember which one. I used up all my saved birthday and Christmas money, put it all in my account, and bought a book a month. Did pretty well at ensuring I didn't run out of money too soon, until my extended family, who were giving me the birthday and Christmas money, suddenly forgot I existed.

Regardless, though I lack money, I've still things that I'd love to buy. Such is the problem of living in a consumer nation. For example, I was never one for material statues and such, but I've a list of 20 or so books I'd like to have in my possession, as well as some various vitamins and hormones for my own devices. Some clothes wouldn't be too bad either, but I've no place to hide them, if you understand my meaning.

One thing I'm quite curious about, though, is some gossip I heard on the grapevine about boosting your mental abilities, not much unlike abusing Ritalin or whatever medicine is prescribed for ADD and ADHD, save the fact that you aren't abusing under-the-counter drugs. Apparently, 'Piracetam' is such the cheap supplement that boosts your mental abilities. How and in what way, I've no clue, unfortunately. Maybe someone else knows more. I do know that you should also take Chlorine Bitartate with it, though, due to Piracetam depleting something or other that's important, but such a side effect is negated by this Chlorine Bitartate.